They
Are Killing Us...
...He's First
written by Ron R. Howard, Sr.
Fun loving
And
quick with a smile
I remember him
He used to be me
I search, but I can't find him
I think he's dead
But I don't remember him dying
He had desires to be someone
Now I look at death
And at times welcome it
Life's no fun anymore
I frown most of the time
And am careful when I joke around
He used to not have a care
But now every move is carefully thought out
It's all so serious now
I want to escape this place
To smile once again
But when I look in the mirror
I don't see him there
His eyes have a sparkle
Mine have darkness
"Are you in there somewhere?" I ask
My heart jumps a beat…
I thought I heard him
- Somewhere -
Ready to be me again
I miss him
And I want to see him
I looked in the mirror a minute ago
Uummm - He still wasn't there
Sometimes I look hoping to catch a glimpse of him
Then I am forced to wonder
Have they already killed him
As they prepare to kill me.
I
don't think he's gone yet
But he's weak
They are sucking the life from him
His emotions are strong
And his fear has caused him to seek shelter
No one in "this" world knows him
But many outside do
Like a small child hiding in a corner
From the boogie man
He hides deep within the recesses of my mind
He is not physically dead
But seems to be melting away
So much so that the boy he was
Exists no more
Caring and Trusting
No more!!! The world is mad for blood
And it doesn't matter from which well it drinks
I stand on the very brink of sanity
And challenge the world.
Where
is your humanity
And those of you who claim to follow Christ
Where is your Christianity
I holler, unheard
Failing to understand
For I loved him so much
And you have chased him away
And
my grip on sanity, it's slippin'
They are pulling me more and more
Into a blackness…
I won't lie… I fear it, but at times I don't what's best
It's cold & wet
And this cell this cage
It's like a tomb above ground
Where I can still hear sound
I wonder does he hear it
There it was!!!
In the mirror!!! I saw some excitement
It's gone again
Just as fast as the wind
I'm for sure now
He's dying
And I don't know how to help him
For they are killing him over and over again
As they continue to prepare to kill me
Help! They are killing us.
And he's first…